If only i can record this...

Alya was playing with the curtain..

Me: alya, jgn tarik2 langsir tu. Nnti jatuh.
Alya: tau la... (omg who taught her that???)
Me: tau la...tau la... (kind of pissed off with her attitude)
Alya: mane? Mane? Mane ular?
Me: mane ape?
Alya : mane ular? Tadi ibu cakap ade ular.

Grrrrr. Org tgh marah..loyaq buruk aaa....

Omg...sudah tua.

I IG-ed this pic last wednesday..with a caption...lebih kurang mcm ni "it has been 2+ mths since alya's 1st day at kindergarden".

Now pls find my mistake.

Pfftttt.

the day we went to KLIA

went to KLIA on 6th Jan to fetch husband. dia outstation g Seoul,Korea for a week. mmg cipta rekod la drive jauh2 dgn alya. sebelum ni tak penah kuar tg malim berdua ngan dia. alhamdulillah, dia x kacau ms drive. kdg2 dia bosan, dok sibuk tanye... nak sampai dah ke? tp i managed to distract her. hehe.

layan gambar ye.

baru sampai

menanti dgn penuh sabar. erkkkk ye ke sabar? penuh kerenah ade la ;p

excited jumpa ayah. eh korang nampak tak jejak kasih tengah laman arrival hall tu?

reunion. tudung senget pun nk interprem.

asyik cite pasal anak je... hari ni cite psl ayahnye pulak...

Me : Tension la hari ni. Ngadap laptop sampai sakit kepala.
Husband : Farr buat keje kejap. pastu pegi la lepak minum..makan kek. pastu sambung la balik.


I LOVE U husband! ;p

p/s: one of the things i learnt abt him after we got married: he listens, but instead of memujuk, he gives solution. now i'm kind of used to it. so, oreo cheese or tiramisu today?

haish la anakku sorang ni...

Me : Alya, jgn la pegang kasut macam tu. kotor la. paham tak.
Alya : Tak pahham cikgu!! (pahham ye... bukan paham. ada tanda sabdu)


Me : *usik mainan alya*
Alya : Ish ibu ni. nak alya main jauh2 tak? (nada ugutan)
Me : taknak
Alya : Ha..kalau taknak, jangan kacau.


Alya tertumpahkan air.
Alya : Ha..tengok. kan dah tumpah. (jeling ibu). pegi ambik tisu cepat
Me : *menurut perintah tuanku*


Tgh suapkan alya makan.
Alya : taknak dah
Me : Makan la sikit lagi.. nanti alya hungry.
Alya : Taknak. tak boleh makan byk2, nanti alya muntah ti (short form for nanti).


Tgh mandikan alya
Alya : Lepas ni nak gi mana?
Me : Gi school la
Alya : aaaa... taknak banyak.
*baru hari selasa kot... dh byk ke?*


Masa alya 1st day kat school, aku senyap2 cabut. agaknye bila alya cari aku, cikgu bg alasan aku g toilet.
Alya : tadi cikgu cakap ibu pegi toilet
Me : mana ade ibu pegi toilet. ibu gi work.
Alya : Aah.. ibu work. ape la cikgu ni.


Bagi sebungkus roti kat alya.
Me : nah alya... bawak g school.
Alya : Taknak. Ibu bawak gi UPSI.
*ewah, dia balas balik kat kita.*

alya goes to school - the photos

First day of school (2nd Jan) at tadika ABIM

at class, tadika ABIM

2nd day at tadika ABIM

3rd day

First day at Tadika Kurnia Minda

Breakfast be4 going to Tadika Kurnia Minda (5th day)

alya goes to school - the chronicles...

Dec 2012

• melawat kawasan tadika & taska A with alya. clean, tapi kurang ceria. islamic-based.
• decided to proceed, based on komen2 dr org sekeliling (MIL, neighbours etc)
• take form.

Jan 2nd

• register at tadika (830-1130am) and taska A (daycare 1130am-530pm).
• alya berkepit je, nak suruh teman masuk kelas.
• then, bila dia tak sedar, ibu senyap2 keluar.
• dgr dia nangis abt 10mins
• ibu skodeng sekali sekala... alya byk senyap.. and buat hal sendiri dlm klas.
• pengasuh frm daycare report, alya nangis bila nak pee tapi malu nk cakap ;p

Jan 3rd - 7th

• continue sending her there every morning
• same thing... nangis2 bila bgn tido... bila nak mandi... bila kat tadika...
• asyik cakap xnak g skool
• breaks my heart everytime she cries.. but hv to be strong

Jan 8th

• same routine this morning (stressful as always)
• terasa x sampai hati sbb alya mcm terpaksa gi skool
• this morning, i stayed around for a while. masuk ngan dia dlm klas.
• before masuk, aku dgr teacherA tanya teacherB "sapa tu?". teacherB replied "alya". then, teacherA said "oooo yang nangis semalam tu". 
• maybe i'm too sensitive ke ape...tapi bg aku, it's not polite to label like that. why dont u come and fetch her at the door..and pujuk her. kan?
• then we went in... klas dh start masa tu. ada 4org je dlm klas utk 4y.o. then, ada sorg kid ni pandang belakang (ke arah kitorang). then, i heard the teacher said..."wafi, pandang depan. kalau tak cikgu rotan".
• WTH. 4y.o baru kot. xkan ko expect diorg duduk diam mcm university student kot? terus sentap!
• after i managed to sneak out, went inside the car...and.... huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! nangis mcm org gile.... thinking have i made a right decision by sending alya here.. or sending alya to school this early (4y.o)???????? nak dekat stgh jam aku nangis...
• after that...mcm autopilot.. drove to tadika B... which i didnt know where exactly that is... nasib baik la tg malim ni kocik aje. dont know why i drive there.
• kebetulan...bila sampai sana.. supervisor tadika ada depan gate. laju je aku kuar keta..ikut dia masuk dalam. we talked about 30mins. aku tanya segala... fees, terms, syllabus... everything that came across my mind. 
• dia tanya "kenapa lambat daftar?" yela... since dh 8hb kan. then, aku pun cite hal sebenar...then, she started to explain psl pendidikan awal kanak2.... wow. her knowledge really amazed me.
• next thing i know... i ask her.."bila alya boleh start?". of course, she can start the day after.
• that night, i talked to husband (dgn air mata meleleh2...buruk rupa). he agreed to give it a try.

Jan 9th

• alya's 1st day at new skool
• nangis jugak...biasa la...tempat baru...
• too early to judge

Jan 10th - 14th

• still nangis.. tp makin lama makin sekejap.
• pagi2 still ngadu xnak g skool... tapi once dh mandi sume.. ok je pakai kasut sendiri..masuk kereta sendiri.
• i googled about other moms experiences psl hantar anak to tadika at 4y.o.
• stumbled upon doa/ayat2 untuk lembutkan hati anak. compile and print them out

Jan15th

• woke up extra early and get ready
• before kejutkan alya... recite the doa/ayat.. and hembus pada alya (with tonnes of kisses)
• ayah pun bgn extra early
• three of us had breakfast together (we rarely had the chance to do so)
• for the 1st time in history... elok je alya x nangis masa aku hantar g skool. elok je salam aku.. and joined her frens main buai).
• alhamdulillah...

it has been 3days... i sticked to doa & breakfast routine. 

insyaAllah...harap consistent.

alhamdulillah.. Allah tunjukkan the incident at previous tadika. and Allah temukan aku dgn this tadika... yg bagi aku jauh lebih baik. why i say so?

• they are registered with Jabatan Pelajaran Perak(tadika) and Jabatan Kebajikan Masyarakat (taska). so, they hv proper syllabus. teachers are trained and attend training every year. building interior and exterior is clean and safe/comply to requirement. JPP/JKM monitor and spot-check the tadika/taska once in a while.
• owner is muslim. supervisor is owner's daughter. so, well-supervised la kan. kata sendiri punya...compared to previous tadika (supervisor is not owner...only work there)
• islamic-based. even during daycare (12pm-530pm), diorg slot in kelas agama (fardhu ain/iqra').
• alternately use malay/english daily.
• junkfood is prohibited, even during birthday parties. 
• ada outdoor activities. ada outdoor playground. every morning ada senaman pagi.
• price? tadika (8am-12pm) + taska (12pm-530pm) = RM220 only. affordable kan? even cheaper than the previous tadika. 
• most importantly... alya said... cikgu budak baik. hehe.

lega ibu.

eh..tak habis cite lagi...hehe.

Jan 11th

• went to tadikaA  (previous tadika)... to cancel and settle.. senang cakap..nak mintak balik duit. hehe.
• supervisor otw datang... so i lepak jap tgu dia.
• join 2 org cikgu tgh sembang ngan kwn depa.. amboi..sempat lg sembang ye.
• dgr sorg budak nangis kat area belakang (near 5y.o class)... dari aku dtg tak henti2 nangis. aku tanye cikgu tu.. sape yg nangis tu.
• dia cakap... "budak 4thn. masa dtg ok. tapi taknak duduk kelas sendiri. tiap2 hari nangis dr pagi sbb nak join kelas kakak dia (5thn). tapi kelas tu kami dh tutup pintu. tu dia nangis sorg2 dia kat luar kelas. biar la... japgi diamla tu."
• ok. fine. japgi diam kot. aku tgu lagi. after a few minutes, tak diam2 jugak budak tu. yg cikgu... no effort nk pujuk...sembang aje. kalau kata dr pagi budak tu nangis.. congak2... dh dekat sejam lebih dh ni.
• aku pun..kesian... pegi la jenguk kat belakang. wah comel budaknya. aku try pujuk... dia cakap "nak kaklong..."... kebetulan ade kereta mainan kecik alya dlm handbag aku... aku pun kasi dia. dlm nangis2 dia ambik. aku dukung dia. tunjuk2 gambar2 sekeliling. trus senyap.
• aku bwk dia g klas dia. duduk sebelah dia. elok je dia ambik pencil colour..and join kwn2 dia colour.
• aku ni... mmg xde bakat ngajar/pujuk budak2 ni... tapi boleh je aku pujuk. x sampai 5minit pun.
• moralnye... kalau cikgu kat situ... yg dh byk pengalaman... patut lg senang la pujuk dia... nak atau taknak je. takpun malas. ha sembang je la ko sukakan.(hangin mode).
• pastu supervisor dia dtg.. aku pun g la jumpa dia.
• aku jenguk, elok je budak tu kat klas. 
• at that time, aku tau, Tuhan nak tunjuk pd aku... i made a right decision. alhamdulillah. semua drNya.

well...

semoga pengalaman aku jd iktibar utk readers sekalian..

moral of story..

• pilih tadika/taska yg sesuai. boleh dgr pendapat org... tapi every child/parent is different. taste dia mungkin bukan taste kita. taste anak dia mungkin bukan taste anak kita. so... go survey. and survey hard.
• kalau boleh, pilih yg registered to Jab Pelajaran and JKM. to be registered, they hv tonnes of rules to obey. JKM/Jab pelajaran also provide FREE trainings. 
• i prefer islamic-oriented tadika. No, tadika alya tak wajibkan pakai tudung. but they teach doa, ayat2 lazim, iqra', solat. lagipun, kalau tadika islam... makanan terjamin halal. just my 2cents.
• never give up. it takes time for them to settle down.
• follow ur instinct. jgn takut nk tukar tadika. xyah berkira sgt la kalau certain fee yg kita byr ms registration diorang kira burn (in my case burn RM255)... it's nothing compared to better place for our child
• most importantly... doa dan usaha. try doa dan usaha dulu... (in my case, dh ditakdirkan tukar tadika dulu...;)). by usaha,i mean... cuba tingkatkan excitement diorg psl tadika. tanya psl tadika... cakap yg baik2 pasal tadika... etc. 
• lastly.... be strong.

p/s : thanks to whatsapp supermoms (Qun & Dza) for ur daily moral support. only Allah can repay ur kindness.

planB

bila anak hyperactive, tak kuasa mak nak gigih usung g kedai gambar...
and expect her to sit (and smile) properly utk ambik gambar passport.

maka...

terpaksa la guna tangan bangku mak ni...
and manipulate..

before

after

p/s : bukan nak buat passport pi obersi pun... nak bg kat tadika alya je ;p

desperate housewife

kenapa aku tak senang duduk ni? dua hari ni.. sejak alya g school and nursery baru.. aku mcm cacing kepanasan. buat itu salah buat ini salah.

sudahnya smalam 5 kali aku g skodeng dia. hari ni 3x. aku rasa cikgu2 & pengasuh dia dh naik muak tgk muka aku. tu baru 2 hari...

maka minggu ni baru siap 4 slide utk present next week. incl title & thank you page. #%$$*$*$

dahla tempat mengadu nun jauh di korea... huhu!

ok bai.
nak pegi ambik cinta hati saya.

.updates.

buwekkkk... dh muntah (refer last entry). alhamdulillah. terasa burden separa unloaded dr bahuku. ye ye, still have presentation, journal paper and final submission to work on. tapi as for now, daku lega.

short trip to penang..alang2 nk attend kenduri cousin kat balik pulau. stayed at hydro hotel penang. a 4star hotel located at batu feringgi. ciri2 penting.. seaview, pool kids, breakfast included and of course berpatutan (affordable di hujung2 tahun ni.. ;p). alhamdulillah, 2D1N yg sgt worth it. after so long she's been sleeping alone, alya tdo sekatil ngan kitorg that night.. wah sgt challenging (mengada). no need to bebel about that. breakfast spread is ok, most importantly halal. enjoyed our time at the pool (330pm-630pm). of course alya yg paling seronok and excited. priceless. this time dia dh makin berani.. she joined me in adult's pool. sebelum ni, asyik kat kids pool aje. 1st time I wear a proper muslimah swimming attire, so boleh betul2 mandi. instead of main2 air shj sebelum ni (sbb kalau swim, kena halau ngn pool guard). pool guard kt hotel ni lagi strict. mmg x kasi can langsung. just bought goggle for this trip. wah really worth it. 

in search of country club nearby for regular swim. with kids pool of course. harap husband is with me in this. better spend weekends like this, than our usual trip to malls, kan? [azam tahun baru].

husband kena outstation for 6days starting ahad ni... to SEOUL, KOREA!!!!! last time we checked, suhu -13degC. whoaaaaaaaaaaa... sejuknye. i rarely experienced that when i was in Germany. but i think he can cope, since kitorang dh prepare coat/fleece/shawl/gloves/hat sume. insya-Allah. sales girl at winter time suggested long john (of course), tapi kitorg x beli pun. mase kat german dulu, ada la aku pakai 2x je. lagipun mahal siut. sepsg dh nk dekat rm200. takkan nk ulang pakai sepsg tu je for 6days. mau asam baunye. jenuh kalau nk beli 6psg. plus, kitorg mmg xde plan nk pegi winter vacation dlm masa terdekat. been saving for our umrah.. tu pun, boleh pegi bila alya dh besar sket, dh skolah. 

alya is at nursery now. a few days left. 3 days to be exact. then, next year start hantar dia to taska pulak. ada beberapa tadika/taska kat sini. choice pun x berapa byk. islamic ones ada la dlm 3 4. aku takde la buat research2 mendalam sgt... tp just depend on my MIL. she suggested ABIM taska, based on experince kengkwn2 dia. diorg lg byk mkn garam, so, abim taska it is. harap alya boleh cope. berdebar2 jugak fikir2 kerenah dia 1st day of school nnti. dh la husband takde, g korea. tapi insya-Allah. mcm biasa, we always start the talk early. dr awal tahun dh bgtau dia... nnti alya nak pegi school. i even brought her there masa nak ambik and hantar registration form. bawak dia masuk dlm... explore sket. first time dia malu2. kejap je dok situ, dia dh ajak balik. 2nd time was better. nampak plak ada gambar upin ipin kat dinding. terus excited. haha! actually, taska ni agak lama. so the building is kayu and old. the interior pun bukan la ceria meria mcm standard tadika2 swasta lain..tapi alhamdulillah, very clean. area masak/main/toilets diasingkan. quite proper. so, we gonna give it a try.... walaupun, deep inside... alahai sedihnye taska anak aku ni. but its for her best. insya-Allah membesar sbg anak solehah. 

lastly, harap ms husband kat korea nnti...alya x demam2 mcm last time. dh sebulan kitorang do the ayah-nak-pegi-korea-naik-aeroplane-alya-duk-ngan-ibu talking. insya-Allah...

gonna miss him too...

p/s: xde mood nak berhassle transfer/upload gambar.

muntah

tau tak korang rasa mual2 dalam perut ngan dalam tekak. pastu bila muntah, rasa sgt lega...

that's how i feel abt my research progress.

tak sabar nak....
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MUNTAH!!!!

quick updates (like anybody cares)

• 2 hari lepas hantar 1st draft pd SV. tawakkal je la.
• smalam jumpa SV..kena bambu cukup2. tu pun dia just sempat komen psl format & outline je. 
• this morning hantar 2nd draft. gigih menghadap sehari suntuk. tawakkal lagi. menanti komen2 dia psl content plak.
• ye... dline lagi 5 hari. padan muka.

p/s : rumah mcm kapal karamsinghwalia

uh oh dah jumaat

alamak stressnye dh jumaat. research projectku masih merangkak2 cari jalan keluar. since monday, hanyalah merangkak2 round and round and round mcm merry go round. faculty dh kasi email ala2 warning.. remind pasal datelines bagai. ye ye.. saya tgh berusaha ni puan. harap bw bertenang. tiktok masa berjalan...

masa terasa sgt cepat jalan tau.. especially this week sbb weekendku will start early dan habis lewat. faham tak? tak paham buat2 paham. today at noon (erkkk lg sejam kot), my weekend officially start. means tutup journals, tutup laptop, tutup otak kiri, bukak otak kanan.

oh hectic weekend ahead. until monday... since husband on leave on monday. mesti aku di drag sekali ke kancah lepak2. plus, its alya's 3rd bday on monday. so, plan nak buat small celebration kat taska dia. kind of bday + farewell party. coz next year..means.. next month insyaAllah nak hantar g tadika dah. preparation... 1% sbb baru tempah kek je. yg lain ZERO.

dh dpt bayangkan ke-hectic-an tak? *lap peluh*

tambah perasa lagi...
kaklong balik kampung this weekend, maka haruslah bawak alya jumpa cousin2nya utk berjimba.
dgn kenduri kat ipoh on sunday.. means.. whole day journey shj.
*lap lagi*

so...
byebye2 journals+thesis+endnote...
see u tuesday..kot.

welcome..
full-time mommyhood and wifeyhood and sisterhood dan hood2 yg seangkatan dgn nya...

p/s: hectic but fun! inshaAllah.

sekali harung...

masa birthday hari tu.. aku ada buat satu azam.. d/line : 6th Nov 2013 (kalau panjang umur...insya-Allah). ia berkaitan dgn daily life.. mcm mane aku react atas apa jua keadaan.. salah satu drpd perkara2 yg aku nak sgt improve dari dulu. bila dicongak2, kalau aku berjaya bab ni, insya-Allah, others will be kacang goreng (ewah). aku percaya hubs & alya want the same..


apa bendanya... biarlah rahsia...


sejak 2 hari lepas, bila bgn, aku fikir, mampu ke aku improve lagi hari ni? so far, still trying, dan resultnya kurang memberangsangkan. kalau dlm dua hari boleh berubah, dh lama aku berubah,kan? this time needs more effort; kena cari ilmu... lebih byk dekatkan diri pdNya, berdoa tanpa putus asa... dan teruskan berusaha dan berharap. aku ada minta seorg teman utk doakan aku dlm hal ni di Mekah. insya-Allah, akan dimakbulkan bila Allah tetapkan itu masa yg sesuai utk doa tu dimakbulkan.



next week is awal muharam.
kira azam tahun baru jugak la ni...
sekali harung.

wish me luck!


p/s : org kata, kalau berazam, elok tulis azam dan lekat pd tempat yg kita nampak hari2. buat desktop background aci tak??? dah mmg eden ari2 ngadap laptop ni ha buat thesis.;p

three zero

happy birthday to me...

alhamdulillah...

birthday tahun ni sgt special dan berbeza drpd besday2 sebelum ni...
di penghujung 6hb Nov 2012 ni...
buat aku terfikir...

what did i do to deserve...
... so much love from hubby; pre-birthday cake (seriously??), my favourite red velvet cupcakes, handbag, bday dinner and lots of kisses *censored*
... non-stop wishes thru sms/call/FB.

adakah sbb semua org excited...
... nak welcome aku to 3series club?
... nak bgtau yg depa still muda remaja... dan aku dah termasuk dlm golongan tua kerepot?

apa pun reason korang... yg pasti... hari ni...
...akan aku igt sampai bila2.
...aku tdo dgn senyuman lebar sampai telinga.
...i feel loved and diingati (thx to mark zuckerberg)

if lepas ni aku ada rasa marah/bengang dgn MrHusband, i will remember this day...the day when his effort is priceless. love u till jannah..

tq all..
ukhwah forever!

random

- phoneless buat sementara waktu..until.. ntah la. nasib baik under warranty,kalau tak.. susah hati fikir brapa la cost nye. phone start buat hal last week...wifi xleh on. network x detect. hantar g kedai. dia upgrade to icecream sandwich. sama jugak.. even worse,malam tu, pepandai fon off sendiri. pfftttt.

- dpt bday gift in advance from husband. tq moi love!

- still merangkak2 buat research project. sempat ke submission by mid dec *nangis*.

- sedang berjinak2 utk keep track of my expenses. kalau tak, hancur..

- final decision. no school for alya next year. kecik lagi..

- rumah bersih, hati tenang. toilet berkilat2 disental husband semalam. "dah lama tak buat amal jariah.." katanya.. hehe!

Hello November!

the happiest month of the year.. hehe! poyo.

today... on sembang pagi...

Husband : nak ape utk bday?
Me : *silence* (dlm hati, oh sh*t, lupa nk fikir nak hadiah ape)
Husband : sabtu ni kita g beli nak?
Me : hmmmm (pretend tak excited...padahal dlm hati... come on farr, think think think... )

a few hours ago.. lepak jap kat sofa.. konon2 nak fikir nak hadiah ape...
hmmm... check IG dulu la...
grab phone.. unlock... switch on wifi thru icon.

nothing.

go to settings. wifi dh on. but still scanning for network.

wait.

nothing.

still scanning.

try to switch off wifi.

nothing. wifi still on and scanning.

huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!






so, dh takyah fikir2 nak hadiah apa kan?
*wink wink*




p/s : dalam mimpi la dapat S3

nasik oh nasik!!

tak sabar tgu esok.

sebab esok MrRazi dh start cuti

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esok dh plan nk breakfast kat luar.

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excited nak makan NASI LEMAKKKKKKKKKK!!!

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dah 2 mggu ooo tak makan nasik.

kempunan nih.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA kengkawan...

maaf zahir batin (?).

*-*

big step for us today.

tak pernah dirancang.. secara spontan dan kebetulan, semuanya berlaku. alhamdulillah Allah permudahkan. semoga ia keputusan yg betul. insya-Allah.

i love you, husband.

and of course..
you too, alya..

*muahhsss*

dah tau!!

tau ape?

dah tau... siapa dalang di sebalik aci kat india..

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tak lain tak bukan...

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the ever-famous....

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kalau rajin, tgk la dari awal..
kalau tak rajin, go straight to min 3:18.

"aci kat india la!!"





haishhh macam2 anak aku nih ;p